Friday, July 23, 2010

I FIND IT INTERESTING AS A WOMAN HOW WE LIVE UP TO THE LABEL 'BITCHY'. HOW WE ARE ALWAYS IN JUDGEMENT MODE! NOW I CONSIDER MYSELF TO BE A REASONABLE NICE WOMAN AND A PRACTICING SPIRITUALIST, BUT I AMAZE MYESELF AT TIMES WITH THE TOTALLY JUDGEMENTAL THOUGHTS THAT CROSS MY MIND!! I KNOW THAT I AM FAR FROM BEING ALONE IN THAT. I COMFORT MYSELF BY THE KNOWLEDGE THAT I WOULD NEVER VERBALISE THESE THOUGHTS OR KNOWINGLY HURT SOME ONE ELSE WITH THE 'BITCH' WITHIN, BUT AS A PERSON WHO PRIDES HERSELF ON BEING AWARE OF MY SUBCONSCIOUS PRATTLE I AM STILL SURPRISED AT HOW QUICKLY I JUDGE. IS IT A FEMALE THING OR DO ALL OF US JUDGE EASILY...ESPECIALLY ON APPEARANCES. IT EXTREMELY SAD IN MY OPINION THAT I DO THIS BECAUSE I ALSO KNOW THAT THE CRITICAL VOICE WITHIN ME ALSO CROSSES OVER TO BECOME A SELF MOCKING DIALOG. IT IS MY HOPE THAT I CAN CHANGE THIS ASPECT OF MYSELF, THOUGH THROUGH OUT THE YEARS I HAVE TRIED AND SUCEEDED TO A DEGREE BUT IT IS ALSO APPARENT THAT IF I DO NOT KEEP UP WITH A POSITIVE REINFORCEMENT THAT I CROSS OVER TO THE 'DARK' SIDE RAPIDLY. AGAIN I WONDER IS IT OUR DNA ARE WE JUST NATURALLY PROGRAMMED THIS WAY? WHY IS IT SO HARD FOR US - HUMANS - TO JUST BE HAPPY WITH OURSELVES AND ALLOW EVERY ONE ELSE TO BE HAPPY. WHETHER WE ARE TALL OR SHORT, FAT OR THIN, FAIR OR DARK, BLUE EYED OR BROWN, REALLY IN THE END IT WILL NOT MAKE ANY DIFFERENCE TO THE OUTCOME OF THE WORLD THAT WE LIVE IN.

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