HERE I AM AGAIN!

WELL HERE I SIT; ONCE AGAIN EMBARKING ON THE JOURNEY OF WEIGHT LOSS!
LIKE MANY I HAVE LOST COUNT OF THESE MOMENTS, MY MOST RESENT SUCCESS WAS 2 YEARS AGO. I LOST WEIGHT AND THOUGHT GREAT I CAN CONTINUE THIS MOMENTUM AND FINALLY LOSE THE 60POUNDS I DON'T NEED. I SUCCEEDED IN LOSING 30 BUT SLOWLY SO SLOWLY HERE I AM BACK AT THAT PLACE I THOUGHT I WOULD NEVER SEE AGAIN.
I THINK THAT I AM WELL INFORMED ABOUT FOODS AND CONSIDER MYSELF TO BE A HEALTHY COOK, BUT STILL HERE I AM...FAT..FAT...FAT.
I HAVE LOOKED AT MY EMOTIONAL RATIONAL AROUND FOODS, DEALT WITH SOME OF MY INNER DEMONS, BUT!!!!HERE I AM STARTING ONCE AGAIN.
I AM GOING TO TRY TO PROGRAMME MY INNER FATTY, TO THINK AND EAT LIKE A SLIM PERSON. I HAVE BOUGHT THE BOOK! CREATED A PLAN, JOINED THE GYM.
NOW ALL THAT IS LEFT IS FOR ME TO REMEMBER TO LOVE MYSELF, REGARDLESS OF WHAT I SEE IN MY MIRROR NAKED. TO PROCEED DAY BY DAY, MOMENT BY MOMENT, TO ALLOW MYSELF THE GRACE TO ERR BUT NOT STOP. TO HONOR MY SELF AND MY BODY BY RESPECTING IT TO THE POINT THAT I WANT IT TO BE STRONG AND HEALTHY,TO BE PATIENT AND KNOW THAT THIS IS A LIFE CHOICE. TO BE OK WITH PLACING MYSELF FIRST FOR A CHANGE.
SO HERE I AM. LET ME WALK SO I CAN RUN. GRACE ME WITH YOUR LOVE AND SUPPORT. DAY BY DAY, MOMENT BY MOMENT.....