HERE I AM AGAIN!

WELL HERE I SIT; ONCE AGAIN EMBARKING ON THE JOURNEY OF WEIGHT LOSS!
LIKE MANY I HAVE LOST COUNT OF THESE MOMENTS, MY MOST RESENT SUCCESS WAS 2 YEARS AGO. I LOST WEIGHT AND THOUGHT GREAT I CAN CONTINUE THIS MOMENTUM AND FINALLY LOSE THE 60POUNDS I DON'T NEED. I SUCCEEDED IN LOSING 30 BUT SLOWLY SO SLOWLY HERE I AM BACK AT THAT PLACE I THOUGHT I WOULD NEVER SEE AGAIN.
I THINK THAT I AM WELL INFORMED ABOUT FOODS AND CONSIDER MYSELF TO BE A HEALTHY COOK, BUT STILL HERE I AM...FAT..FAT...FAT.
I HAVE LOOKED AT MY EMOTIONAL RATIONAL AROUND FOODS, DEALT WITH SOME OF MY INNER DEMONS, BUT!!!!HERE I AM STARTING ONCE AGAIN.
I AM GOING TO TRY TO PROGRAMME MY INNER FATTY, TO THINK AND EAT LIKE A SLIM PERSON. I HAVE BOUGHT THE BOOK! CREATED A PLAN, JOINED THE GYM.
NOW ALL THAT IS LEFT IS FOR ME TO REMEMBER TO LOVE MYSELF, REGARDLESS OF WHAT I SEE IN MY MIRROR NAKED. TO PROCEED DAY BY DAY, MOMENT BY MOMENT, TO ALLOW MYSELF THE GRACE TO ERR BUT NOT STOP. TO HONOR MY SELF AND MY BODY BY RESPECTING IT TO THE POINT THAT I WANT IT TO BE STRONG AND HEALTHY,TO BE PATIENT AND KNOW THAT THIS IS A LIFE CHOICE. TO BE OK WITH PLACING MYSELF FIRST FOR A CHANGE.
SO HERE I AM. LET ME WALK SO I CAN RUN. GRACE ME WITH YOUR LOVE AND SUPPORT. DAY BY DAY, MOMENT BY MOMENT.....

CHANGE

WE ARE SURROUNDED AT THIS TIME WITH NEGATIVE MESSAGES
MESSAGES THAT 1. THE WORLD WILL END [AGAIN] IN 2012
2. THAT WE THE PEOPLE ARE DESTORYING THE PLANET
I FOR ONE AM TIRED OF ALL THE MEDIA HYPE....WHAT IS THE TRUTH AND WHAT IS FICTION. SEEMS TO ME THAT DEPENDS ON THE SORCE OF THE INFORMATION...CONFICTING AND CHANGABLE! FEAR CREATES A CONTROL OF SORTS, AS WE THE MASSES RUN AROUND ACTING LIKE OUR HEADS ARE CUT OFF CRYING 'THE SKY IS FALLING' WE FAIL TO PAY ATTENTION TO REALITY..MASS HYSTERIA HAS ALWAYS BEEN A EFFECTIVE TOOL USED BY TYRANTS FOR AS LONG AS MAN HAS ROAMED THIS PLANET. IT IS TIME FOR ALL OF US TO REACH WAY DOWN INSIDE OURSELVES AND FIND OUR TRUTHS AND LET THEM GUIDE OUR ACTIONS. WE ARE BEING FEED A LOAD OF CRAP AND ALOT OF US MINDLESSLY BELIEVE WITHOUT SEARCHING OR RESEARCHING WHETHER IT IS A TRUTH OR A LIE. STEP UP PEOPLE!! WE ARE THE STRENGTH OR WEAKNESS THAT ALTIMATELY WILL BRING THIS PLANET BACK INTO BALANCE. ARE YOU DOING ANY THING AT THIS TIME TO RESTORE HARMONY AND LESSEN YOUR IMPACT ON THE ENVIRONMENT YOU LIVE IN? ARE YOU QUESTIONING OR JUST AIMLESSLY BELEIVING THE MEDIA HYPE? DO YOU AIMLESSLY WANDER AND DO WITHOUT THOUGHT AND PARTICIPATION?
WE ALL NEED TO FIND A SPINE AND OUR HEARTS AND KNOW THAT ONE VOICE CAN AND WILL CREATE A CRESENDO THAT WILL FLOW AND SPREAD AND HEAL. IF EACH OF US BECOMES COMFORTABLE WITH OUR VOICE AND PASSIONATE IN OUR EFFORTS WE CAN AND WILL ACHIEVE THE BALANCE NEEDED TO RESTORE THE ENERGY THIS PLANET NEEDS TO MOVE FORWARD.
GO AND THINK. GO AND BE MOVED. GO AND DO. PLANT A GARDEN, GROW VEGETABLES, RECYCLE...TURN OFF THE T.V. DON'T BE MINDLESS....QUESTION EVERYTHING...BELEIVE YOU ARE THE CHANGE!
TOGETHER WE ARE STRENGTH...ALLOW THE LINKS OF CHANGE TO TAKE HOLD AND WATCH AS THEY FLOW FREE, ENABLING OTHERS NOT BINDING AND BLINDING.....ONE BY ONE WE ARE THE CHANGE!

FEAR

WHETHER WE CONSCIOUSLY KNOW IT OR NOT WE MAKE A LARGE PROPOTION OF OUR DECISIONS BASED AROUND FEAR! FEAR IS A MOTIVATIONAL FORCE THAT CAN GUIDE OUR MOVES. IT CAN FREEZE US IN OUR TRACKS OR IT CAN PUSH US TO SUCCESS.
YET MOST OF US NEVER TAP INTO THAT EMOTION THEREFORE WE OFTEN LEAVE A LARGE AMOUNT OF OUR POTIENTAL UN-TAPPED AS WELL. MOST OF THE TIME WE USE OUR FEARS TO GUIDE US WITHOUT CONSCIOUS REALIZATION...IT [FEAR] SITS SIMMERING IN THE BACKGROUND OF OUR MINDS, SENDING OUT JUST ENOUGH STIMULII TO GETS US TO EITHER ACT OR NOT.
MOST OF US HAVE A RATIONAL REALIZATION THAT WE 'FEAR' SUCCESS OR FAILURE BECAUSE THERE ARE HUNDREDS OF BOOKS AVAILABLE THAT TELL US WE DO! EMOTIONALLY WE UNDERSTAND 'FEAR' OF SNAKES OR THE DARK ECT BECAUSE THOSE FEARS WE NORMALLY HAVE A REASON OR EXPERIENCE ATTATCHED TO THE FEAR.YET MOST OF US 'FEAR' SEARCHING AND EXPLORING OUR 'FEARS'! WE DON'T WANT TO BRING UP EMOTIONS OR ISSUES, WE WOULD RATHER LEAVE THEM BURIED IN OUR MINDS. I AM NOT SAYING WE DON'T AT TIMES MAKE SOME ATTEMPTS TO FREE OURSELVES FROM OUR FEARS; AND AT TIMES WE ARE SUCCESSFUL AT IT. BUT DO WE MAKE EFFORTS TO USE OUR FEARS ON A DAY TO DAY BASIS! DO WE TAP INTO THE ENERGY OF FEAR AND USE IT TO OUR ADVANTAGE. I THINK NOT! I BELIEVE WE DO NOT REALISE THAT WE CARRY AROUND UNLIMITED AMOUNTS OF FEAR..SMALL OR LARGE THEY SIT AND MAINLY ACT AS A UNSEEN BARRIOR....SLOWING US DOWN AND CREATING NEGATIVE ENERGY THAT STORES IN OUR BODIES.
I BELIEVE WE NEED TO TAP INTO AND USE THIS STORED ENERGY TO OUR ADVANTAGE; THAT WE NEED TO LISTEN TO OUR UNCONSCIOUS MIND AND LEARN TO ASK QUESTIONS DAILY. "WHAT AM I AFRAID OF TODAY" AND THEN DON'T JUDGE THE ANSWER...JUST CARRY IT AROUND WITH YOU AND THINK ABOUT IT, SEE IF YOU NEED TO DO ANYTHING ABOUT IT. BECAUSE NOT ALL FEARS NEED TO BE FIXED! THEY JUST NEED TO BE HEARD! USE THE ENERGY TO MOVE SLOWLY FORWARD AND HOPEFULLY YOU WILL FIND YOURSELF FEELING LIGHTER IN BOTH BODY, SPIRIT AND MIND.
EXPLORE WHO YOU ARE, BECAUSE REALLY FEAR CAN BE YOUR FRIEND NOT YOUR ENEMY.

BLESSED BE
DEBRA RAE

LOVE

IF UNKNOWN TOMMOROW WAS TO BE THE LAST DAY OF YOUR LIFE
WHAT HAVE YOU LEFT UNDONE....WHAT REALLY MATTERS?
IS IT PLACES WE WANTED TO VISIT
CHOOSES WE ALWAY THOUGHT WE MIGHT MAKE
I KNOW FOR ME THE ONLY REAL REGRET WOULD BE TO NOT TELL
MY PARENTS THANKYOU FOR TRYING YOUR BEST WITHOUT A RULE BOOK GUIDING YOUR WAY
I TURNED OUT JUST FINE, OR SO I LIKE TO BELIEVE! AND I LOVE YOU.
TO ALL MY FRIENDS WHO HAVE SUPPORTED ME OR GIVEN ME SHIT WHEN I NEEDED IT
WHO LAUGH WITH ME AND AT ME BUT I KNOW I CAN COUNT ON, A RARE COMMODITY
INDEED AND I LOVE YOU ALL
TO MY CHILDREN WHO HAVE MANAGED TO GROW UP WITHOUT THE AIDE OF A MENTAL HEALTH PROVIDER
WHO FEEL COMFORTABLE IN THEIR OWN SKINS AND TELL ME OFF WHEN I NEED IT
I AM PROUD OF ALL OF YOU AND LOVE YOU
TO MY HUSBAND WHO AT TIMES JUST SHAKES HIS HEAD BUT IS THERE FOR ME THROUGH THICK AND THIN. WHO LIKES TO SEE ME GET MAD! BRAVE MAN THAT HE IS
I LOVED YOU THEN AND I LOVE YOU MORE NOW
SO REALLY IF TOMORROW WAS MY LAST DAY
I REALISE THAT MATERIAL THINGS THOUGH NICE DON'T MEAN A THING
TO HAVE LOVE; SHOW LOVE AND BE LOVED ...WHAT MORE COULD YOU ASK FOR
AND AS WE NEVER KNOW WHEN OUR LAST DAY MIGHT COME
MY ADVISE IS ALWAYS TELL THOSE YOU LOVE THAT YOU REALLY REALLY LOVE THEM.
TOO ALL OF YOU IN MY LIFE I REALLY REALLY LOVE YOU!

OUR PLANET

AS A DRUID AND WICCAN I UNDERSTAND THE CLOSE CONNECTION BETWEEN MANKIND AND THE EARTH WE INHABIT. I TRY TO BE AWARE AND RESPECTFUL. I MEDITATE AND SEND HEALING ENERGY TO OUR PLANET OFTEN...I TRY TO RECYCLE AND BUY GREEN...I ALSO CHOOSE ORGANIC FOODS WHEN I CAN. I TURN DOWN MY HEAT DURING THE DAY AFEW DEGREES AND ALSO AT NIGHT BEFORE I GO TO SLEEP. NOW I AM FAR FROM PERFECT IN MY GREEN EFFORTS...I KNOW MYSELF FAR TO WELL AND LIKE MY VISES AND COMFORTS TO BECOME AN EXTREMIST...ON THE OTHER HAND I BELIEVE THAT IF WE ALL MADE A PLEDGE TO DO ONLY ONE THING TO HELP THIS PLANET AND STUCK TO IT; WELL WHAT A DIFFERNECE THAT WOULD MAKE; REALLY WE ARE ALL A LINK IN THE SAME CHAIN, BY STRENGHTING OUR OWN LINK BY MAKING A EFFORT SURELY THE LINKS AROUND US WILL STRENGHTEN AS WELL...ONE STEP AT A TIME WILL CREATE THE JOURNEY TO A HEALTHER AND STRONGER PLANET! GO PLANT A TREE OR FLOWERS THAT DON'T NEED PESTICIDES, GROW HERBS OR VEGETABLES..USE LESS WATER...DON'T BUY PLASTIC BOTTLES....RE-USE....IF THIS IS SOMETHING YOU CAN'T COMMIT TO THEN MAYBE YOU CAN JUST THINK LOVING THOUGHTS AND SHARE THAT WITH MOTHER EARTH AND THOSE AROUND YOU...NO EFFORT IS TOO SMALL!
CHOOSE TO LIVE WITH COMPASSION
CHOOSE TO BE PRESENT
CHOOSE TO BE RESPECTFUL
CHOOSE LIFE..YOURS AND THE PLANET YOU LIVE ON.
CHOOSE TO ACT NOT JUST BE A PASSIVE PRESENCE
CHOOSE!!!!!

BLESSINGS BE
DEBRA RAE

SMILE

THE SIMPLE ACT OF SMILING COSTS NOTHING BUT CAN TRANSFORM
NEVER UNDER ESTIMATE THE POWER OF A SMILE BOTH ON YOUR EMOTIONS
AND THOSE OF OTHERS AROUND YOU
A SMILE CAN HEARTEN THOSE FEELING DOWN
IT CAN FEEL LIKE A RAY OF SUNSHINE
MAKING YOU FEEL CONNECTED EVEN WHEN YOU ARE STRANGERS
GIVE IT A TRY...IT COSTS NOTHING
IF ANY THING A SMILE IS PRICELESS
THE ABILTIY TO BRIGHTEN SOME ONE ELSE DAY
TO FILL YOUR OWN HEART WITH WARMTH AND GLADNESS
TO FEEL CONNECTED....NOW THAT IS SOMETHING TO SMILE AT


BLESSINGS BE
DEBRA RAE

THE SUN AND SEA

I HAD A WEEK OF ENJOYING THE CUBAN SUN AND SURF
FOR ME THE SUN AND OCEAN ARE RESTORATIVE TO MY BODY AND SOUL
MAYBE IT'S BECAUSE MY ROOTS ARE IN A COUNTRY THAT IS FULL OF SUNSHINE
AS A AUSSIE I SPENT MY SUMMERS BATHED IN GOLDEN SUNLIGHT AND PLAYED IN THE WATERS AROUND ME
I LOVE THE FEEL OF SAND IN MY TOES AND SALT WATER BATHING AWAY MY WORRIES WITH EVERY PULSE OF THE WAVES.
I HAVE A LOVELY GLOW ON MY FACE AND IN MY HEART AS I SIT ONCE MORE LOOKING OUT AT THE SNOW THAT REPRESENTS AN ALBERTAN WINTER
I OFTEN WONDER HOW OR WHY I AM HERE AS I AM NOT A WINTER PERSON AT HEART
I AM AS FAR AWAY FROM THE SAND AND OCEAN AS I COULD POSSIBLY BE
THE AUSTRALIAN IN ME OFTEN ASKS 'WHY'
THE SEEKER IN ME UNDERSTANDS LESSONS TO BE LEARNT AND BEAUTY TO BE UNDERSTOOD
BUT FOR NOW I AM GREATFUL FOR MY WINTER BREAK
FOR THE SUN, SAND AND THE SEA!

BLESSINGS BE
DEBRA RAE